I have self respect and beauty.
I’m just confident, not conceited.
I’m also smart and such a cutie,
And I know how I should be treated.
I have style and I have grace.
After me you’ll never be the same.
No one can ever take my place.
I’ll put any girl to shame.
I’m a girl that you treasure,
Every day that passes by.
Who’s down just for pleasure,
And will always ride or die.
If you’re searching for a chick like me,
Your looking for someone you’ll never find.
I’m genuine and as loyal as can be.
You can believe I’m one of a kind.
are on my shoulder
I’ve never had
What goes into the
will come to the
What I have done wrong
I must make
A heavy burden
I carry within my
Made by a secret
that I must
A million and one excuses
but the results
At the end of the day,
it’s myself who’s to
Losing this friendship
is what I’m
An unforgiving heart
is what I am
You enslaved my heart, it was only the start,
of your twisted game.
Anchored it down, tortured and bound,
without any remorse or shame.
Shackles on my soul, I am no longer whole,
yet not an ounce of mercy.
Scarred on the inside, with no where to hide,
no courage left to flee.
Broken and busted, my mind maladjusted,
all sanity is slipping away.
Bruises are showing, your anger keeps growing,
I’m a battered fool put on display.
In the pits of hell, a captive under your spell,
reality’s finally revealed.
Lying lifeless on the floor, I can bear it no more,
this sentence must be appealed.
Condemned to sorrow, no hope for tomorrow,
I’m dangling by a splitting thread.
Intoxicating my pain, opium runs in my vein,
patiently awaiting to be dead.
Now in my agonizing demise, This brave girl opens her eyes,
to a mysterious light
No longer a prisoner of your illusion, nor your sadistic conclusion,
I’m ready to fight.
Even at a steep cost, I’ll take back what I’ve lost,
Life’s exposed the key.
I’ve gained back control, I’ve redeemed my soul,
At last I’ve been set free..
WRITTEN FOR ALL THE ABUSED WOMEN.. ABUSE ISN”T ONLY PHYSICAL.
IT”S NEVER TOO LATE TO GET HELP. I WAS PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, AND EMOTIONALLY ABUSED FOR 4 & A HALF YEARS. YOUR’E NOT ALONE..
I never thought my life would turn out this way.
I could just get high and everything was okay.
I was suppose to be a chef or a classy model.
Never thought my life would revolve around a pill bottle.
I never thought violence and drugs would push me this far.
Leading this kind of life, leaves and emotional scar.
My biggest worry was supposed to be what to wear.
I never thought I’d be down in the depths of despair.
Never thought my life could change before I had the chance to blink.
I guess this is what I deserve because I didn’t stop to think.
If you would’ve asked “In ten years, where do you think you’ll be?”
I never thought I’d be the one to say “Headed to the penitentiary?”
THIS IS A MUCH OLDER POEM. I WROTE THIS WHILE INCARCERATED.
I’m sorry that I wasn’t there for you,
For all the pain I’ve put you through.
For every time I have ever gotten high.,
For all the times I caused you to cry.
For not being their for your birthday,
For missing the first words you had to say.
For being absent for so much of your life,
For causing you heartache, anger, and strife.
For putting others in front of you,
For not making time to do what you wanted to.
For all the promises made, that wound up broke,
For acting like my life was just a joke.
For breaking your little heart,
For tearing your entire world apart.
Let me apologize once more,
I’m sorry I didn’t change before.
WRITTIEN FOR MY OLDEST DAUGHTER ALEXIAH..
It begins with one letter.
Then turns into a few.
That create words,
That make a sentence
Filled with emotions that
You didn’t know how
Soon turns into feelings
You never thought you’d
A process that
Only gets better with
Some will be intense.
Others will rhyme.
Before you know it you’ve
Written on the entire
Words written with
Passion, irony, and rage.
Who would of thought
That with just one letter
Could set you free and make
Someone else’s day better.
One simple smile will
You know it.
You’ve created a
The true work of
I was looking out my window one night.
When a magical star flew by, so bright.
It was beautiful beyond imagination.
One of the most magnificent of God’s creations.
Quickly, I clenched my eyes so tight.
And made a wish with all of my might.
I opened my eyes to a star lit sky.
Still amazed at how fast the star shot by.
I laid in my bed, but I couldn’t fall asleep.
So I prayed for my wish, for God to keep.
It wasn’t selfish or of any kind of greed.
It wasn’t a desire, it was a definite need.
It didn’t wish for a mansion or a fancy car.
Nothing out of the ordinary, Nothing bizarre.
It wasn’t a wish to find true love.
Or to be the wealthiest under the stars above.
I was just so anxious that one night.
After seeing that shooting star in plain sight.
One day I know my wish will come true.
All I wished for was to be there with you.
WRITTEN FOR MY OLDEST DAUGHTER “ALEXIAH LOUISE FERRER”
I received some photos in the mail
I was so stunned, I had nothing to
After staring at them in much
I was overcome with a sudden
Even though things would change
I had the photos I had wanted
My eyes began to fill with
These very photos had confirmed
So much has changed since I’ve been
And more keeps changing with each
There’s nothing more I can
But wish I could be at home
WRITTEN FOR MY DAUGHTER “AALYIAH ANN FERRER”